Then...Real Peace will remain forever in Jerusalem!

Dear Friends,

I could not finish this blog without opening up an old wound...
Its not for me that I write but for everyone who suffered similar racism and for anyone who feels bad about being the unique precious individual God made him or her!

As being born in a Muslim country from a Jewish father and a Christian mother, I have never liked religions... since a little girl I percieved religions as being all about
ignorant fanatics stupidly fighting and killing each other in the name of the same GOD OF LOVE!!!

I actually rejoiced when I studied philosophy and human rights preparing my A levels and
thought I had finally found intelligent loving people to converse with!

However whislt in Paris, I had a personal revelation of Yeshua Messiah
who visited me personally in my small room.

I felt compelled to read the bible on my own because I did not trust any religious people.
It is only after three years that I felt lead to join some Christians
but I did not feel at home there and I went to a Jewish Messianic congregation.
God put a loving burning burden of prayer for Israel in my heart and many times lead me to go to Israel to help through voluntary work and through building loving bridges for peace etc...

I suffered racism from both Gentiles and Jews. Each group insulted me and humiliated me telling me I belonged to the other group.
I could forgive easily the gentiles because they did not know how it felt to be a Jew in the flesh... however it was most difficult to forgive the Jews, since after the holocaust and centuries of suffering from racism, they did know how it felt to be a Jew...
but they did not show any compassion to someone like me and were even more cruel in their rejection!

I noticed that in every western country abiding by a human rights legislation, 
people,
whether they had only a mother or a father from their nation,
were granted full nationality without any comments about their other
origin or religion through their other parent,
respected and counted like one of them,
however Israel was the only country I found who discriminated against a child, simply because one of his parents was not Jewish!
I really disliked to be part of such racist and mean community, mainly that God had called me to go to a Bible school and I kept learning that the seed of Abraham had been blessed
and that it was through the fathers that Jewishness was passed on, however the ultra orthodox rabbies had decided the opposite, which to me was absurd and racist...
since to a God of love,
 whether one has a father or a mother from a different origin, one should be immediately
adopted and loved as one of them by both racial groups!


I consequently suffered a very intense and painful identity crisis...
I prayed many times to God asking Him who in His eyes I was and why on earth would He give me such a spiritual care and burden for Israel and the Jewish people when they even did not consider me one of them?
I had inherited the French nationality from my mother side and now that I believed in Jesus, I could easily be considered as a christian and really not bother about a country where there was continually a raging war...

At that time God answered me clearly that in His eyes I was Jewish and that He was calling me to pray for Israel my real country.

I felt that I would not become a citizen although Israel grants to people like
me a kind of second class citizenship,
because as a non violent believer I did not agree in killing Palestinians,
but that I would remain a temporary resident
just to  serve both groups and help peace.
I was influenced into applying for Alya anyhow for practical reasons
too long to explain here,
but I mentioned very clearly in the application form that I believed that anyone
who believes in the God of Israel like Abraham was a spiritual Jew anyhow and for this reason,
because I believed in the God of Israel and in Yeshua as being the
Messiah of Israel, I felt I was a spiritual Jew.

I was granted temporary residence and only stayed five years, where I served mainly in Arabic Israeli villages, teaching for free forsaken children etc and also caring as a spiritual counsellor for Jewish friends in pshycological pain..

Friends, what I still find very shocking in Israel is that they are not happy to put on the passport of anyone who becomes Israeli, just Israeli as all western countries do,
but they feel they must add your religion and even if you have no religion and your father is Jewish for instance but not your mother, they would put Christian but not Jewish!!!
They even have a special name for people born from an Arabic parent and a Jewish parent!!!!

I find Hitler quite compassionate comparing to such discriminatory philosophy totally contrary and opposed to human rights and free religious beliefs...
because at least Hitler executed in gaz chambers children from Jewish fathers alongside of children from Jewish mothers,
Hitler sent to concentration camps children from
Jewish fathers alongside children from Jewish mothers,
which proves that to him,
a child is so precious that he should never be separated from his mother or father and that he belonged equally to both races and cultures, in case of mixed marriages...
Sorry but my sense of black humour comes from my Jewish side....
This to me, shows more humanity and "grandeur d'ame" as the French say than
what some Israeli ultra orthodox rabbies have chosen to demonstrate,
by cutting a child in two and calling "IT" a half half or a BASTARD!!!!
Please see Wisdom of Salomon who seems to think the same thing as two women fight for the same child, he recognized the true mother in the one refusing to have the child cut in two pieces!!!

 Mainly when you consider that the justification of the state of Israel is to shelter all the poor Jews who
suffered so much discrimination from the nasty gentiles...
Ask to the many Russian immigrants in Israel from just the father or grand father and you will have to spend a long time to hear them cry...
I was appraoched more than once by such tearful immigrants begging me to take them with me in a Christian country because they felt so rejected and unhappy in Israel....But this is even mild comparing to the Ethiopian Jews who had to get re-circumsided properly by these obsessive ultra fanatics rabbis...


The hypocrisy of the secular Israeli state resides in the fact that they are adopting ultra orthodox criteria for everything, including the discrimination of Jewish women and the definition of who is Jewish etc ....
whilst there are so many other Jewish religious groups more tuned to human rights and more compassionate in Israel....

How can a country pretend to be secular and then adopt the most extreme religious beliefs as a norm in their secular laws????

In spite of having such strong views against the racism in Israel, I still went
back and back to try to help and I am still praying for this country.

Why would I bother???

Friends, I bother because I am a responsible spiritual Jew and I have accepted the calling of God in my life.

It is not easy to be a responsible spiritual Jew and it was God who gave me a Jewish father. It was God who called me. God chooses who is Jewish not rabbies or any other human being!!!

Since very young, I had been persecuted by some gentiles because of my Jewish family name.
Whilst some friends with a Jewish mother and a French Gentile father for instance, just to quote the painful years I spent in France studying, were seen as French and were okay!!!
I have never never been seen as French by the French and I have often suffered from persecution! Its true that on my passeport, they just put French and not French from a Jewish father or half French half Jew... however in the real world some can still smell the ugly duckling who is not one of them...mainly that the only real French element in my family was my grand mother....
It  also seems that some false Christians enjoy to hurt scape goats because they dont want to be seen as anti-semitic although they deeply are and they will take the first opportunity to vent their anger, envy and jalousy when no risk is involved to be caught...
These sorts of things cannot be forgotten or put aside...it makes a kind of
circumcision in your heart forever!

Unfortunately some Israeli Jews are very often extremely thick and totally insensitive to the suffering they cause to anyone who is not born from a Jewish mother...
Only THEIR suffering should be listened to and dearly compensated and paid for!
Only THEY are important because they feel so above the rest of us!

Even in Messianic circles, I have at times suffered grave humliations
from boastful egotistic Jews who saw themselves as THE ONLY REAL THING!!!
demonstrating they had not understood a minute the message of YESHUA MESSIAH they were preaching to others...

I believe that God cares for every individual exactly with the same love and
respect whatever their ethnical background, colour of their skin or gender!!!!

To me is a spiritual Jew anyone even with
no Jewish blood at all who believes in the God of Israel and Yeshua Messiah...
Friends, as explained, in the heavenly Jerusalem whatever your gender or your racial background, EACH ONE OF YOU WILL BE WELCOMED WITH WIDE OPENED ARMS
BY GOD OUR FATHER!
IN YESHUA MESSIAH THERE IS NO JEW NO GENTILE NO MALE NO FEMALE NO MASTER NO SLAVE etc etc...

I am rejoicing in a sense that I was born from a gentile mother, 
because it taught me humility and compassion to others...
it helped me not to become arrogant or racist...
(since my mother was not a prostitute, as some racists Jews say that all gentile women are
prostitutes, by the way CHRISTIANS ARE NOT GENTILES BUT SPIRITUAL JEWS TOO,because they
believe in the GOD OF ISRAEL....
and was the legal wife, legally married to my father, so that I know my father is truly my father...
The former biblical interdiction to inter-marry was given for both men and women so that one could also probe the character/integrity of Jewish women who have children with gentiles....)

I believe that this is how a real spiritual Jew should be:
A humble servant loving anyone ,
inspiring anyone, to becoming an equal child of God,
an equal spiritual Jew too
and not to aggress and abuse others verbally and physically,
to make sure to keep this privilege just for themselves,
posing on a pedestal like an idol to be worshipped instead of God,
not forgetting to insist cashing in financial compensation, for granting such an honour!

God hates idols and idols worshippers!
However some people born from Jewish mothers believe the whole world
must stand back and worship them!
Stand back because they are too racist to mix with anyone but themselves
and the use of violence through the army is what they know best to win
respect...

I am sorry to say that friends, but although not born a Muslim...
the Muslims in Tunisia taught me what real respect meant...
I respect them because they are respectable and behaved in a respectable
manner...

We knew in Tunisia we were not Muslims mainly from the independance of Tunisia, however, we gently fitted in and everyone lived in harmony, Christians, Jews etc

I learnt about racism through incessant disputes between Christians and Jews in my own families...since birth.

I learnt about racism through coming to France and going to Israel!

I learnt hospitality and warmth through my Muslim friends!

I  also felt a lot more love and acceptance in the UK!

Because I am not a Muslim, I unfortunately chose to leave Tunisia...
 I thought it was not right to colonise their country and although
just thinking of Tunisia makes me cry even to this day, because I miss it so much,
I thought the delicate thing was to leave them between each other finally enjoying their country without privileged western colons to rule over them...

If I share these painful memories and wounds with you is to help all those who like me were lead to think they are "nothing" just because they are a melting pot...

It is also in the hope to help racists to change and grow up

It is also in the hope to help Israel, the country which I think
according to God's may be my real country at the return of Yeshua..
unless I am already in heaven which I would like best to be!

It is because I care for all and especially Israel! I also have met wonderful Jewish people everywhere who totally accepted me, including in Israel and I love them as much as the country.  As I love all my good Christian friends everywhere in the world, including France...

However I feel that some in the Israeli government and  amongst the ultra fanatics are still leading their country in a wrong direction and I hope with all my heart to see one day, occuring the good changes leading to true peace in Jerusalem!

I know it might sound a bit bold, but I have sometimes felt as if God
wanted me to initiate a new spiritual movement above religions...
in Yeshua ... and if you feel that way, please write to me, whatever your
origin, you will be welcome, as long as coming with a genuine peaceful
and loving heart, and we can start praying about all that together!

Let us not fight to know who could be seen as  born the most physically "Jewish", black or white or else!!!
This is not what's important brothers and sisters... we all will die one day and leave this physical body...
However our soul and spirit will remain and what's important is who we are inside spiritually!!!

I wish here to ask for forgiveness to all my Muslim brothers and sisters,
from the Jewish side of me, for all the bad treatements Israel
made them suffer from since they arrived in Palestine.
We have the same Father Abraham and should always treat each other
as brothers and sisters not ennemies!!!

Actually my father who was Jewish from father and mother for many
generations, lived and died in Tunisia, a country he always deeply loved,
he worked for the good of Tunisia since very young, he actually created
the first battery factory there and many other public works such as roads, airports etc...
He considered Tunisia as HIS COUNTRY since he
also had Tunisian nationality and never wished to change....
He never wished to go to Israel...because he did not respect the arrogance/
racism some other Jews were displaying against the Muslims and the rest
of the world... In that, I can say that I am truly his daughter!

Let us pray for the peace of Jerusalem but let us not forget to pray for the
peace of PALESTINE, IRAN, IRAQ, SYRIA and all our Muslim brothers and sisters too!
So they will also be included in the peace and joy in the Holy Land
  when Yeshua will come back!

Then and only then....
REAL PEACE WILL REMAIN FOREVER IN JERUSALEM!

Love and peace to all!
sister lucy